I decided that I will not make as much effort to hide. I will not say who I am or I will offer clues to discover that I have to discover. At the end we all end up coming to the surface, as the bloated corpses of the drowned who swallows the sea. I will continue telling my story, I'm behind her, looking to learn something about myself, or finding that there is nothing to learn. For starters I confess that I lied about everything in my story of how I became a whore, which is totally false, and after a bit I fabled in certain experiences, but the base is almost always true. I am a beginner. Let's leave it at that.
Why do I get into this? It was not to pay for my services, as stated in the topic of the crack whore. Get those things for me has always been free, just had to go with some men who have pockets full of candy to those who pay the company of people, and those who end up surrounding yourself with people who invite everyone leaves, or people looking for someone to invite you all. I belong to the second group, but soon was in the first. I do not like these men, in the end one realizes that they have nothing to offer me that after all can not buy sold, as it was in fact a long time.
simultaneously played it before with other work, a decent (to call in some way, although almost all jobs have some indecency), now I'm not worth it. I make more than I need to be a bitch, the other work I had become a kind of alibi, I ended up throwing away to sleep at home in the morning.
Things will change. Or why I have proposed since I had a big nosebleed. It was unpleasant to look like that, with blood dripping from the nose, and inside the throat. I stopped for a week, and then I began again. But that day I began to worry and I considered seriously put an end to all this, I thought to reach the Dec. 1 or my 30th birthday next year. The other day I went to the dentist, I hurt a tooth for a while. The dentist saw nothing but tinker. He said if I went and I was going to run out of mouth. That what had happened in the tooth was the first warning. I had a root canal, and then I put a titanium tooth. He tells me not notice anything, but it is a mark for life. Do not want to go there. If you only saw me notaríais no nothing, I have very good looking, always seems that I am more healthy than an apple, as they say ... but I keep having the feeling that something eats me inside. I eat what you eat my anxiety. Sometimes I have the feeling that if you do not throw anything in there, my body will feed on themselves.
this week makes me work harder. With my clients I always abstracted with the anticipation of pleasure was to come in when I got home. Now there is no reward.
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